truth of anger

hey-ya..the whole universe!!!


mood bengang ak mlnde dri ye skang ni...ntah ak pon xpham...tpi...sspe pompuan n ak rse llaki pon tai knape dlm sbuln msti ad time pompuan ni pnye mood mmg plik je kan?? sspe yg ad mkwe pompuan tu msti tau kn???tpi...bkn sume makwe tu pompuan ke??teeeettttttttt...


so..sbab mood xmnentu ni..ak try bnyk bnde supye ak xmoody sgt..ak ni bkn ap...ak xske moody ni..cian kt org skeliling ak...kne lyan mood ak...ak ni plik skit lau moody..


for sspe yg knal ak since ak pndai berkwan dorg mmg jrg tgk ak moody or emo terlbih...ak ckp ni based on opinion mmber terbaik ak ye...bkn msuk mesin pusing sndri k..ak mmg humble..plus comey xingt...eh mmg bnyak la klebihan istimewa ak..ssah nk cite stu2..hahaha..bgos x ak..sspe yg skit ati ngn klebhan ak jgn rse nk pcah skrin laptop ye..sbab ni sume bkn ak yg ckp..kkwan ak yg ckp..hahaha..pde kkwan ak..xyah la korg nk say out loud..ak ni leh read mind ok..lgi hbat dri Edward Cullen ye...hahaha..


ok..oleh sbab ak ni teramat la cool..so ssah sgt nk jmpe ari dimne ak mngamok..mmg sgt rare r..mcm korg nk tgk Cristiano Ronaldo lpak kt Bintang Walk smbil ngorat awek mlayu..bkn mustahil tpi ssah nk jdi r mksud ak tu...ak hnye akn mrah klu ad bnde pnting yg leh wat ak mrah..n ak sndri ssah nk identify ap yg leh wat angin sepoi-sepoi bhse leh tkar jdi taufan Nargis yg hbat gile tu...stakat ak hdop ni..bleh kire pkai jari r kot ak ngamuk sakan..

tpi...jgn ssah ati lau korg ad wat ak mrah sbab kmarahan ak mmg amt cpt sejuk..sgt cpat..xsmpat org nk dtg mnx maaf ak da maafkn da org tu...ak bkn ap..lau ak mrah tu.msti ad something yg wat ak rse pning..sbab dlm hdop ak..sume bnde must be a simple thing..i see everything in simple way..as simple as i can...tu la best way nk survive in this challenging world..ye la kn..hdop ni klu kite look in complicated world mmg gile r jap ag...bgi ak sume org wat silap..spe kite nk mrah or ngamok kt org tu..tkat mrah mnje tu xslah kn..??


n sbab ak ni jrg mrah..ak expect org pon ssah nk prasan bile ak mrah..klu ak simple je..ak mmg ske berckap..in normal days ak..ak mmg talkative ngn org yg close ngn ak la..lau ttbe stu ari ak jrg berckp..n dlm klas ak pulun dgr lecturer ak berckap tu mksudnye ad something yg xkne r ngn ak...jdi mse tu..lau nk close ngn ak jgn la slap lngkah..lau x mmg end up ngn ksakitan hati la korg...mse tu korg msti act normal je..tpi ignore je moody ak n tros wat ak glak..mmg pastu ak lpe trus npe ak mrah..


seingat ak..hari pling emo ak slme ak jdi mnusia ni..skali je..tu pon da mlap2 da ingtn ak..hahaha..


dlm life ni..


when we something as a bad thing, we always see it that way..be positive is not harming yourself..it is not being nice to every body..but just the life as u like..ignore others.. be nice..be a pretenders is the best way to survive..


ak xdpt nk upload video yg ak nk share...so ak try share from YOUTUBE je r...

EPIK HIGH RAWKSSS!!!

halo..


lpas siap assignment mmg amt puas hati..hahaha..rse dunia ni ana yg punya..hahaha..so..ap kite nk wat anak2???


KITE ENJOY!!!!


bengong mat..esok ad klas dowh..hahaha..so..cmtu kite lyan twilight r..ad sebundle novel die lom khatam ag..hahaha..tu la ak..jurnal yg berlmbak tu mlas nk bce..novel yg ber-kati2 sggup lak..kikiki..


harini still ag 6 feb ag..so ak nk wish lgi skali..

HEPI BIRTHDAY SYUN!!!!

da tue da dak sorg tu..mmg ak wish die blik cpat2..sbab rndu lak nk bork ngn die...kekekeke..wish u the best my lovely bro..become more cute as the day pass by..be strong n blaja leklok...hahaha..come home safely ye...we'll be waiting..

so..main story kite arini...hermmm..ap ek...ntahla..xde kot..so..ak nk share playlist ak je r..ske ati r nk bce ke x..tpi ak ttap nk gtau gak..top 10 je r ea..

kite countdown k..

10. sixth sense - menyesal

9. Aliff Aziz feat Joanne - Kalau Cinta

8. After School - Diva

7. Wheesung - Insomnia

6. Avril Lavigne - Slipped Away

5.Jung Young Hwa feat Seonghyun - Banmal Song

4. B2ST - Bad Girl

3. SHINee - Quasimodo

2. FT Island - Love Love Love

1. FT Island - I Hope

so..sspe yg enjoy lgu yg sme...kite jdi kwan nk??hahahaha..

ad bnyk lgi lgu yg ak lyan..ad dkat 200++..tpi ni je yg latest ak ske dgr...hahaha..

so..till then..gudnite..hahaha..

truth of shopper and disaster

hey-ya!!


ak suda kmbali...ke pngkuan kolej ku yg tercnta ni..hahaha..mmg ak cntakan kolej ak...so what..anything's bothering u????hahaha

bkn ap..niat dihati..sblum terjdinya bnjir aritu..ak ngan housemate ak nk gi mronda Segamat dlu..tu yg blik awal..tpi hajat mmg xksampaian..mmg mse ak update ni bnjir da mkin srut da..tpi klau kitorg  pgi pon mmg xgne la..sbab ak da sure cnfirm yg sgala jnis kdai yg ad kat bndar segamat tu kne ttup..bnde bese la tu..agpun ak xnk gak bli brg bkas bnjir..hahaha..

tpi..tpi ye..xyah gi sne pon duit ak pon terhakis gak..tu normal r kan...klu ak kluar je ngn housemate ak(yg dlunye rum8 ak)..mmg duit kami akn terhakis dgn bgitu cpat skali..ak pon xpham knape..ak rse kitorg ni kmbar terpisah la..sbab utame ak ckap cmtu..kitorg ad reaksi yg mmg iras-iras bile tgk brg..yg pling pnting kpale ak ngn die mmg sme...kitorg ad kmahiran yg sme...mlnyapkan duit dlm tmpoh yg sgt sngkat...sspe rse bermnat nk blaja..sila la cntact kmi...hahahahaha...pkar gila kitorg..duit dlm vault Bank Negara pon bleh tehakis lgi cpat dri tnah runtuh kitorg buat...mmg gmpak kn..??

so..sbab kitorg ni mmg pntang kluar..n stiap kli kluar mmg akn ad fulus yg kluar mnari bersama dgn mke rela hati jtuh ke pngkuan toke2 kdai yg mmg ad kmahiran mngayat...jdi..ak pon mmbeli spasang ksut...

mcmane??cun x???bgi ak mmg da abes cun r kan..ak xkire ksot ak cun gak...hulalalala..warna purple ye adik2...ni klu nmpak bb ni msti mlonjak kjelesan die.. da la bb ak tu mnat kaler purple...hahahaha..jgn mrah b..quality camera ni poor r...pkai webcam yg ad kat lappy je..

tdi ak tgk gmbo bnjir kat hometown ak...mmg agk trok la ye..

location die kt Bandar Utame..tmpat ni tol2 sbelah sngai Segamat ye adik2...mmg tmpat wajib naik air ye tiap2 kli bnjir...

yg ni lak rail ketaapi pnye jmbtan...tgk pars air sungai tu....jgn main air waktu bnjir ye...

yg ni lak playground and recreation site yg btol2 kat tepi sungai...da mcm tman tema air lak ak tgk...sronok lak..kekeke

 tdi tu mostly gmbo from downtown yg ni lak jlan uptown...mmg xstruk downtown la ye...nme pon uptown...klu uptown pon bnjir mmg sure r stu sgamat jdi laut ye...tpi yg bestnye..ttiap kli sgamat bnjir msti msuk brite...n ak mmg bngge gile r...thun ni yg gmpak sket bile dewan skola tercnta ak msok tv tu....hahaha..STS STS STS..SKOLA TERCINTA....skola ak

ak da tgk da cite SECRET GARDEN...mmg comey abes..romntik..unik..sweet n mmg double thumbs up r..nsib bek ak mmg ad dua jri ibu je...lau ad 5 mmg sume naik r jari ak...hahahhaha...siyesly korg kne tgk...plakon die..mmg sgt comey..mmg r xsume tpi mmg mnepati cite rse...

ni official poster cite ni...

ni lak hero die..HYUN BIN...

 yg ni lak plakon yg ak mnat tgk dlm cite ni..cute alahai x ingt...hahaha..nme die LEE JONG SUK..jong suk oppa


hehehehe...ak da kne dmam da ni...ak lau da mnat mmg puas la ak surf psal die ni..smpai lupe niat utame ak connect ngn wi-fi ni...sbeno nye ak ad assignment..so ciao bebe...

truth of bengang....

this week mid sem break start ye...and before statrt break ag ak da plan nk wat something...well..biase r sbab duit pon da msok kn...so plan kat dlm puncak snarai ak...BLIK SGAMAT!!!...ak da excited da plan surprise meeting ngn kekawan ak kt McD sgamat...


but....ak pon xpham..knape ttbe..mncul kt brita TV3 mlm Ahad tu...pngacare brite tu ckp..

'jln2 mnuju ke JB,Muar dan Melaka dr Segamat tlah dtutup krana BANJIR'

and...tnpe dorg sdar ad seorg mnusia yg sdng mratapi nsib ktike itu..umpama kce berderai dtimpa batu..hati ak pecah berderai...speechless..knape????? ak da mlas ag nk knang bnde tu...sdey ciallll...

so..sblom kjadian sdey tu berlaku...ak yg blik awal tok mrayekan cuti rye cine..jgn terkjut..ak blik kg ag awal dri dak cine yg nk rye tu..hahaha...cuti stat ari sabtu..ak smpai umah ari rabu...hahaha..excited nk mmpos..

tpi..ak blaja something dri bnde xbermoral yg ak wat..mse ak tnggu bas kat dpan KK ak..ad gak r yg bgi jlingn maut mnyntuh hati...ad ag yg siap tnhye ngn mke dengih kerng bsuk..

'blik cuti ke??'

pastu ckp ngn mmik mke yg mmrli ak...ak da pham da mksud sbalik ayt tu...

'gile awal..cmne die lak yg rye'

so..jgn nk slhkan ak lau klas ak tok mnggu tu da hbes ye...mmg ak rse nk bwak spnduk yg bertulis KLAS SYE DA HBES TOK MNGGU NI..SO SYE NK BLIK CUTI??AD PROB???

bru gmpak...tpi sbab utame ak blik pon sbab hearing case kat court ari jumaat tu..so nk xnk kne blik gak r..hahaha..tpi mmg ak bngang..sbab pnat gile gi cri court yg bru pndah..puas gak pusinh kliling stulang..pusing kliling berjam tpi bile da smpai..msuk jmpe hakim xsmpai 3 mnbit da kuar..ap la..pnat je dtg...after that..ak ngn family ak gi la hit the town..nsib bek duit ak msuk shari sblum tu,,so dpat r ak treat dorg mkn KFC...hehehe..sblum tu duit ak da pon di pau oleh adik ak..hehehe..kitorg bli MP3..yeayy..1 for 70..

amcm cun x...??mrah pon sbab ni bkn latest design..tpi overall..puas hati..more than what u expected...clerance stock ag pon...kekeke...pastu adik ak yg llaki tu ttbe lak nk mrase susu yg org promote kt dlm Giant tu..pas test susu tpung tu..promoter tu bgi adik ak hadiah..sand colouring la kot..ak pon xbape psti pbende nme bnda tu..tpi lpas ak wat..ni la hsil die...

klu x lwa bkn slah ak..tpi kmera ye..kekeke...apepon..even ak trpakse cncel plan nk blik sgamat then lpak ngn kwan baek ak..tpi ak ad a blast holiday r...tu minus ngn assignment ye...blmbak tpi ak lom grak ag...nek cuti kne sent...haila bnci tol ak...

gmbo ak pki tudung syria....thnx kat mak ak sbab bek ati blikn tudung ni...lau nmpak montel tu pipi tu dume slah kamera ye..hahahahaha....

gmbo2 yg di snap kli ni ats simpati kmera hp atok ak...hp ak xde kmera...huaaaaaaaaaa

kalendar akademik tok sesi 2011/2012..mksudnye..2nd year ak ye...let's check it out..

 http://www.uthm.edu.my/v2/images/studentaffairs/kalendar%20akademik%20sarjana%20muda%2020112012.pdf

sbab ak ni xbpe pkar nk adjust input ni..so ak attach je la ye...papepon..sem break ak kli ni stat somewhere in bln 5 and sem stat bln 9..so..totally ak mghabeskan mse dkat umah slame 4bln lbih krg r...hahahaha...


aritu ak gi mngmbara kat psar mlm..bese r..da lme gian nk gi psar mlm kt area parit raja ni..kekeke...so ap yg korg expect ad kat psar mlm???

tu la gmbran lau korg xpnah lagi jjak kaki kat psar mlm ni..jgn nk bhong la yg kaki korg tu suci habes xpnah pegi psar mlm...ni la tmpat pling gmpak dri stiap mall yg ad dlam dunie ni..korg nk ap..sume ad..dri mknan smpai la brg yg 'kecik comey' tu..caye la ak ckap..spe yg xpnah gi mmg hdop korg xlngkap jdi mnusia kat bumi ni...


stu section yg best kt psar mlm Tmn U parit raja ni..personally la ea..kt area ni ad jual bundle kt psar mlm..from bju,ksut smpai la home appliances..lngkap..so..ak ni berknan gak r ea tgk bundle..spe ckp org pompuan xpkai brg bundle..haaa!!!brg tu murah n kkdang lau nsib bek mmg lawa n sgt limited..not mention mrah ye..cntohnye..ak bru je bli beg kulit..then lau tgk keadaan fzikal mmg smpurna..n duit ak kuar rm 5 je..murah kn..(xleh nk upload gmbo sbb keadaan henpon yg 'canggih nk mati')


ckup puas ati..ak tnjuk kt mmbe ak dorg expect harge beg tu up to rm 50..tpi..slah ye adik2..hnye rm 5..ak mmg tgh hepi ngn kjayaan ak bblnje...kekekeke..mmpus r lau nk jles..yg pnting ak hepi..ak rse lau sabo nk mmbelek..msti jmpe BONIA..then gi lak jlan ag..jmpe lak bundle ksut..perghh..ni ag best..ADIDAS,NIKE,ALL STAR..bersusun..ad stu tu ak mmg berknan r..tpi bile blek2 beg duit..tgk2..awat duit ni tggl skping ag..haila..mse tu r ak mnympah sranah PTPTN...so xdpt la beli...cioootttt..


sbab pnas hati ak gi lak tgk mknn..ak hntam yong tau fu...sdap gile..terangkat la..ak da mark da mke pakcik yg jual yong tau fu ni..strategi tok mse akn dtg..hahahaha..


even..ak xdpt kasut bundle tu ak ttap puas ati..even..mse tu ak da rse nk gi attack PTPTN yg lmbt kuarkan duit loan ak...ak pon xtau la mne stu yg lmbt..PTPTn ke UTHM ke..xpela..bright side die..ak xla galak sgt blnje..yg pnting..arini duit ak da msuk ngn jayenye..xla ak sbok nk fkirkn jln meng'ayat' duit mak ak..bkn snang wo..snang ag nk mhon loan kt bank dri mnx kat mak ak..hhehehehehee..


bile da msuk duit ni..mcm2 bnde nk plan dlm kpale ak ni..tpi..yg pnting..ak kne byar hutng tertnggak kt mmbe2 ak..

truth of regret

Ahad lpas ak gi mlawat mmbe sklas ak yg msuk hospital sbab denggi.trok gak dowh..smpai msok ICU beb..cian ak tgk dowh..msok ICU then koma lak..kitorng pon rmai2 gi r tgk..mmg la xleh nk tolng bgi die shat..tpi..dpat gak r bgi smngat kat parents die..sdey bile tgk org yg kite syg terlntar skit kat ats katil..

sbnarnye..ak mmg xbrape ske gi hospital..ntahla..akpon xpham..dlu mngkin sbab bau ubat yg kuat kt hospital..tpi xla smpi lmah kpale lutut msuk hospital tu.tpi kli ni..ak msuk je hospital..bdan ak lmah..smpai kt dpan ICU lak feeling bercmpor baur..ttbe rse xkuat lak nk msok..

yg pling wat ak xkuat bile ak terpakse tgk keadaan org yg terlntar kat ats katil xbermaya..org yg dlu shat..ceria..ttbe die skit terlntar..ak xbleh..n ap yg ak tgk keadaan kwan ak mmg sdey..tlongla..jgn wat ak kne berhdapan ngn bnde ni lgi..ak tkot..sgt tkot..

spnjang jlan blik..ak teringat kat arwah Abah.by now,da 10blan abah xde.even hdop akxbnyak berubah scare fizikal,tpi i miss him damn much..

ak ingt ag bnde yg jdi..abah kat ICU..hopelessly lie there..ak xde kat sbelah die mcm yg slalu die wat lau ak skit..mse die skit ak xdpat spent time ngn die..take care of him..it such a huge regret in my heart..yg pling worst..ak xde mse die pergi..die yg slalu ngn ak lpas mak n abah cerai..tpi bkn ak yg ad dgn die mse die nk pergi jauh dri ak..bkn ak yg tmnkan die in his last breath..knape mse tu ak blik mtrix..??knape ak xstay tnggu die??sdgkan die slalu tnggu ak..mse die dimndikan for the last time..knape bkn ak yg mndikan die??sdangkan stiap kali mndi sunat ari rye..die yg akn mndikan kitorng adik bradik..

mse die dikafankan ak still lgi dlm perjlnan nk blik ke JB..hnye ad mak ngn adik2 ak je..klu ikotkn hati ak..ak nk hnye ak yg pgang mayat die dn uruskan die..dari awal smpai habis..itu je yg mmpu ak buat untuk die thu yg ak amat syang die..slame ni ak amat berhrap yg die akn nmpak ak..syg ak..ak nk jdi rpat ngn die..itulah jgk sbab knape ak stay ngn die..even ak tau tu ssah..tpi ak dpat stay by his side through his hard time..tpi knape bile btol2 die perlukn ak..ak xde???

bnyak bnde yg ak ngn die slalu cerita..

"akak tau kn bile kite mati..bile org blik dri kubur kite lpas tujuh lngkah,malaikat dtg nk soal kite dlm kubur??nnti klu abah mati..korg jgn tggal kubur abah tau.dduk je bce yassin kat tepi"

die ckap smbil ktawe.ak ktawe.even mse tu ak pkir yg bnde tu agk mngarut.tpi mse ak tau die da btol2 pegi.ak nk wat bnde tu.tpi..ak xde..die pegi sblum ak smpai..ak hnye dpt tgk kubur die je..tnah..tnah yg kt bwah tu ad terbringnye jsad org yg pling ak syg..

tlonglah..jgn la sruh ak berdpan bnde yg sme..ak xkuat..mgkin di luar org akn ckp yg ak ni kuat..tpi xkt dlam..ak xsnggup ag berdpan ngn bnde ni..even ak tau yg tu sume khndak dan takdir Allah..ak o sspe pon mmg xdpat lari..

to anyone yg xprnh lgi mrase hilang somebody yg kite syg..bile bnde tu mkin dkat..stay by their side..always..so..when it comes n take them..kite xkn rase mnyesal..sbab..when it comes to death there is no turning back..let go.ap yg bleh kite bleh let go..sbab kite xkn jmpe..xbleh berckap lgi ngn die..sbab die akn pegi jauh dri kite..save the regret..

skang bile ak pkir blik ak pham..slagi kite tkot nk korbnkn ssuatu..kite xkn dpat ssuatu..

u win some u lose some 

  

truth of dream..

slpas bbrape kali tergndala..ak hrap kli ni dpt la ak siapkn entry ni..hahahaha...


akhirnye hbes gak klas ak tok mnggu ni..da la mnggu first..tpi sume subjek yg ak amek tok sem ni da ad klas....haila...pnat gak..17 jam kredit...bleh thn llah gak nokss..hahahaha..lect ak tok sem ni lak..bleh pkai gak r..krg gak r skit ketensenan ak nk mlngkh ke klas..huhuhu..


oleh sbab sem ni ak dipisahkn bilik ngn rum8 lme ak..so kitorg hnye akn jmpe stiap kali mlm..dinner..so bile da jrg jmpe ni mcm2 gak r yg nk dikongsi n digelakkn..naik sem ni pon kitorng da slalu mlepak mrate kmpus...lau nk mkn je gila mrayau msuk kmpus o lpak kat kdai mkn kat luar hostel...hahaha..bkn ap..tkar angin..huhuu..


lpas da mkn smbil bork2..apelagi..ttbe terlntas la something kat dlam otak ak yg mmg tgh beku..sbab knyg sgt mkn nasi goreng paprik..

klu la ak bleh bce fkiran org..

best x???klu ak..ak nk sgt ad ability tu..yela kn..dlm dunia yg mmg keji ni..cewah...kite xbleh nk guess ap yg org lain pkir..kkdang nmpak baik kat luar..tpi hati made in longkang pnye cap...ad lak yg mke da mcm lanun dlam POC..tpi hati tulus murni..ssah2..so klau ak ni ad ability yg cmtu xdela ak terslah sngke ngn mnusia skeliling ak..krg skit ak buat amal jariah sdekah phale kat die..yela..lau kite tgk org tu ngn bad impression kite msti kutok org kn??so lau bleh bce fkirn org...kurang la skit...

then lau ak leh bce fkiran org..ak nk sgt gunekn klebhan ak tu tok tlong membe2..oleh sbab ak ni slalu sgt dgr kluhan 'cinta bertepuk sblah tgn'..so ak nk tlong dorg..bleh tlg mmbe ak gather up the courages to ask him/her nk gi date ke x kn???so..ak dpt wat kbajikan n mmberi kbhagiaan...policy ni termasuk gak tok private use gak...sbab ak ni rmai sgt 'MEminat'..hahahahaha...

so...lau ak dpt bce pkiran org...org2 yg nk ak bce pkiran die ialah...

ak nk tau sgt..btol ke yg dorg ni gay...bile kite lay read mind je kite akn tau dorg ni gay ke x...hahahaha...

tpi tu bkn mnceroboh privacy ke????herm...herm..gi mmpos r..ni tok mse dpan ak ni...huahahahahaha...

p/s:mmat yg pgng kek tu hot stuff..hahaha