truth of the beautiful...

bkak2 fb..then ak teringat stu komen psal stats ak mse Maal Hijrah smlm..


stats ak pnye bnyik lbey krg mcm nk change for good r thun ni..then ad stu komen mmbe ak...


'lau nk change ubah la jdi halimatun..lau x slame ni mat je'


ak yg bce pon terkedu...hahahaha..terpana skjap...cmne nk buat kn..xsgke lak ad org nk ak change jdi cmtu...well..for the time being...ak just bleh glak je la tgk komen tu...ahahahaha...


bkn ap...spe xnk tnjuk side ayu diorg kn...ak ad reason npe ak xnk jdi ayu...antrenye:


1. ak xnk boifren ak ssah ati everytime kitorg kuar..yela..bile ak jdi ayu..ak mmg sorg yg sgt ayu...so..sian kat die...juling lak mte nnti lau nmpak org lain pndg ak...cian kat die..


2.ak xnk pompuan lain pndg ak mcm nk tlan nasi lpas ter-stuck 3ari kat planet yg xde nasi...biase r..pompuan...ak pham..sbab ak pon sme..lau nmpak mke yg lawa skit je...msti mte ak skit...lagi2 lau sume llaki nk pndg org yg ayu..nyampah...so..demi kebahagiaan sejagat la kirenye ak jdi cmni..noble heart tol ak ni kn??


3.ak xnk overshadow kkawan ak bile ak kuar mgm dorg..well..sume org deserve happiness kn???ak syg kwan2 ak...ak nk dorg slesa bile kuar ngn ak...


so..tu la sbab ak xnk jdi terlalu ayu...xpela...kie bgi chance kat org lain dlu r rse hidup jdi ayu...sbab lau ak step in..sian kat dorg..kn???

so..world will be better kot lau org cmni je jdi ikon ayu..k..peace..


beauty or not...we are who we are..jgn tkot xde spe yg nk kat korg..lau korg llaki...xsume pompuan ckap Lee Min Ho tu ensem...Cristiano Ronaldo tu sexy..n xsume ckap Farid Kamil tu macho...xrmai gak pompuan tu ckap Barrack Obama tu berkarisma..so..just be who u r....nk tau x...as long as korg pndai nk amek ati..da kire ok la kot....tpi tu depends gak kn...be urself is the best...lgipun skang ni llaki kn mkin skit...so korg sume ad chance..hahaha..


so..for kaum pompuan lak...jge hdop bek2..n dri kite sbaik mgkin..da ckup kot....arrange hidop kite bbaik..then..akn ad someone yg akn pndg ke arah kite...pndg kite ngn baik...pndg tnpe perlu tgk klu2 kite ni ad ciri2 yg sme x ngn Megan Fox or Angelina Jolie...klu jmpe llaki cmni..da tgglkn je..ni type2 mmat yg xgne ni...xprnh gi skola..or pling trok buta tv...cetek pengetahuan..dorg ni mmg type xtau perbezaan Megan Fox ngn Sarimah yg berlakon cite Kassim Selamat tu...pham????

natural beauty...

plastic beauty...

judge wisely..lau mke pon plastik..prangai...pure ke???


rum8 ak pkat tido..nyte o morning..hahaha








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truth of heart..

bru abes tgk cite korea ter-latest yg ad dlm laptop ak...(laptop rum8 ak..sbab lappy-baby ak tinggal kay umah..)biase r kan..nme pon exam week..so..ak kne jauhkn bnde2 yg mndtgkn kealpaan dri ak...hahaha...bnyik ayt bgitu motivated r..bngge cikgu kaunseling ak...hahaha..

pas tgk cite tu..ak terpikir something..sume bnde kat dlm hidup ni bleh tercpai klu kite btol2 usahe...eleh..ayt klise yg sme mksud ngn..usahe tngge kjayaan..sje nk elaborate pnjg..bru nmpk cam educated dlm sastera...ceit..BM for SPM pon B3..hahaha..well..ayt ni nk wat cikgu BM ak bngge bile tgk student die ni da agk pndai..haha..

playful kiss..latest tu..kakaka

n ak pon terpkir something..ak tau relationship ayt ni mmg xde kaitan ngn statements kat ats tdi..(ni la sbab ak dpt B3 in BM time SPM)...

ok..ayt die..in simple way..

'org yg dkat ngn kite tu la pling jauh dri kite'

so ikut pmahaman membe2 ak yg otk mmg xsastera lngsung..or snang ckap mmg xde sense of mamat jiwang..klu kite dok jauh dri org tu means kite la yg pling dkat ngn die..pham x??..ok cntoh situasi:

korg dok Johor..then kwan korg dok kat Uganda sne tgh kaji khidupan kt sne..then..mngikut ukuran jrak yg pkai meter..jrak korg mmg berbaloi jauh..so..kwan korg tu la org yg pling dkat kat ati korg..

skang ni pham ke x..pham kn la sndri..yg bgi mksud ni mmg xde sense of jiwang karat..blaja nk keje ngn enjin mne ad sense of jiwang..sense of nk jdi bujang karat ad la..huhu..

tpi lau logik ak plak..interpretation yg kwan ak bgi tu agk kne..sbab..mkin jauh korg ngn org tu mkin la korg rndu kat die..ak mmg tgh rndu kat mmbe2 ak yg bersepah srate Mlysia ni..

'sye nk dedikasi kn blog ni tok kwan2 sye ngn ucpan sye rndu kt dorg'..(ayt dedikasi luahan hati n perasaan kat radio Sinar ttiap mlm..btol x nme rncgn tu..???ap ak kesah..hhahaha)..ok..cut the crap..

tpi lau kite tgk pkai 3D pnye spek..(tgh dlm kekaguman tknologi 3D ag ni)..

org yg slalu ad slalu dlm hidup korg tu la org yg pling jauh ngn hati korg..logicnye ayt ni..ialah..bile korg berkwan rpat ngn someone tu..korg msti xbleh nk ad feeling kt die..sbab..die yg pling rpat ngn korg..kite msti xnk friendship kite jdi totally awkward kn?? time tu la kite wat rule sndri..cntoh nye..

'ak syg sgt kt ko..ko mcm abg ak..sbab ak xde abg'

'kitorg xbleh nk lbey sbab kite kn adik bradik'

cmne pon ayt ni mncul sbab kite tkut stu bnde..kite tkut kite cross the line of friendship..simple pnye ayt..jtuh hati ngn best friend sndri..lau korg ad situasi terjtuh hati ngn bestfren yg sme jnis..ermmm...brat pnye kes...ni tok yg berlainan jntina..tpi bleh kot nk apply ayt ak ni..hehe..ak xtau..

ad dua possibilities bile kite terjatuh hati ngn bff kite ni(lain jntina ok..)

1st possibility:

-die pon mmg da lme ad hati kat korg..then..bff(best fren for-eva tkar stats jdi BOY FREN FOR-EVA) xyah kapel lme2 ag sbab family pon da kmceng gaban..tup..tup..kawen..hepi ending..for time being..ok.

2nd possibility:

-die mmg xde ati kt korg..sbab awek or pakwe die ag mntap dri korg..ok..lame excuses..then..korg da xrpat lgi ngn die sbab die mmg avoid call or reply sms lau sender or caller tu nme korg...well..ntah r labu.nsib la kan..then korg pon hilang sorg bff...

so..sbab tu la org yg dkat ng kite tu la org yg pling jauh dri ati kite..logik x??

tpi for sspe yg blum jtuh hati kat kwan bek korg(yg lain jntina tu)..baik lpekan hasrat korg..tpi lau korg btol2 ske..trus je la ckap...ignore sume possibility yg tgh dok ad kat dlm kpale otk dungu korg tu...sbab..klu btol korg mmg kwan die yg pling rpat..korg msti pham prangai sengal or xsengal die kn???so pick up the courages n confess..

tpi bgi yg ssape yg diminati oleh bff sndri tu..snang je keje korg lau kwan korg confess truth feeling die kt korg...simple..lau ske..just say yes..lau x..say no..then lpe je r ngn ap yg die confess..keep on r jdi mmbe die..simple word..wat bodo or jdi je kwan yg bodo sbab klu korg btol xske kt kwan korg tu..korg xkn kesah pon ngn confession die sbab ati korg mmg da solid ngn word 'NO TO MY BEST BUDDY'..so watpe nk avoid kwan korg...truskan hdop..da la korg reject die..n dont make it worse ngn ignore or avoid die lak...respect feeling die..lain la lau kwan korg tu mmg trus nk ptus kwan pas korg reject die...

simple step right???

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ak n skola....

well skang ni kan musim exam....SPM..STPM..n mcm2 lgi la jnis exam yg ad kat ats muka bumi ni...so as students yg blajo kat Tnah Melayu ni sume org pernah mrase exam kn..lau x mmg korg ni hidop zman batu....


ok..cite psal exam ni...ak pon excited nk knang zman lalu blik...cewah...cam la tue sgt umo ak....
kat Mlaysia ni kite mule skola mse umor kite 5 thun kn???kite start tadika..tadika 2 thun..or org putih pnggil kindergarten... ak mse skola dlu kuat mnangis..ok..ak ni ad msalah ngn sayur..mknan yg ad syur ak mmg xtelan..bkn ap..tpi tekak ak ni mmg xdpat terima lau bnde ni msuk..


so..mse kite tadika kan kite dpat mknan free kn??ak pling bnci lau time mkan..sbab makcik tukang msak tu msti msak mkanan yg ad syur..msti..da mcm bnde yg hrus ad lak...tension ak...waktu mkan je ak da wat mke xpuas ati ngn makcik tukng masak tu...satu ari tu die bgi ak mkn rojak yg pnuh ngn sayur...mmg cam cibai...ak mmg wat tnjuk prasaan la mse tu...skali ak mraung...satu kg bley dgr...da r tu..cikgu ak leh lak wat ayt..."klu awk xnk brenti ngis sye msukkan awk dlam guni bgi kat org gile"..ap lgi ak mmg mraung x ingt dunia r...ok..ttup buku thunan tdika ak...


pas msuk tabika kemas kat tepi msjid kat kg pinang sebatang tu kite msuk lak sekolah rendah...lau korg ingt ag r kan,mse korg msuk skola rendah darjah satu dulu mke mmg abes poyo kan???lom ad lagi ak jmpe bdak Mlaysia yg msuk skola darjah satu mke smart..msing2 pkai bju kmeja putih ngn seluar warna biru gelap pastu yg pompuan lak pkai baju kurung kain biru gelap....


lau zman ak skola dlu lak...sbab ak skola rendah mmg kat kg r kan..so klas ak mmg kcik la...xsilap ak xsmpai 30 org rsenye..da r tu..kwan2 lak mmg da knal sjak azali lgi...da mmg kmceng since baby..so mmg xde msalah r kan...pastu yg best dlu ad Rancgn Mkanan Tambahan(RMT)..sbab kitorg bdak kg so mmg mostly dpat r mrase program ni...ak rse skang msti da xde ag kn???klaka tol dlu..bnyik loceng rehat je...rmai2 msti bratur dlu dpan klas...da pas bru bleh grak gi kantin...da la bdan mse tu kecik kemetot ag...yg cilake gaban tu bile bbdak darjah 6 conquer meja kat kntin...mmg cilake....


pas tu time blik lak msti serbu mmak yg jual es krem 20 sen satu calung kat dpan pgar skolah....ak dlu rmai kwan llaki..so..after abes skola..membe baik ak gi blik umah die n amek bsikal n die bwak ak ronda kg..mak ak mmg jmput ak lmbat...ak dok kat kg sbelah...jrak umah ak ngn skola tu bleh than gak r...bkn xde skola kat kg ak tu..tpi sje gatal nk skola kt kg sbela..kwan ak rmai kt sne....


so after gi buat le tour de langkawi..ak n membe ak brenti kat bwah pokok rmbutan tok imam..ape lgi..da la buah die tgh msak ranum...membe ak kat ats petik buah..ak lak kat bwah..tukang kutip..mmg suara ak da jerit thap cipan r sbab ad kerengga gigit ak..mcm2 lgi la bnde yg ak wat..n bnyk gak r btg paip pvc tu bengkok mak ak balun kat bdan ak....hanger bju jgn ckap r...tiap2 bulan mak ak gi supermarket beli stok....well tu la yg jdikn kite org skarng ni...hahahaha


tpi bile da bsar nkal pon da kurg gak r...xde r ag keje kliling kg neek bsikal lak kn...zman da brubah...hahahaha...even da nk abes skola rndah pon ak still lgi nkal gak r...ok..ttup cite skola rndah


ak skola kat bndar mse ak skola mnengah..xla bndr mne pon bndar Segamat je bkn KL pon..tpi tu da kire bndr gak r bgi ak..n ak msuk skola yg agk gempak r kat area Segamat....hahaha...kire bngge gak r...skola ak xla top mne pon tpi ckup wat ak bngge jdi student kat situ...5thun kat situ ajar ak mcm2...


kat high school ak mmg bleh than gak r..ak ni dok dlam klas yg leh than top gak..sbab dlam klas ak rmai top students..tpi ak xtersenarai r....bnyk r kngan ak kat sini..tpi yg pling best bgi ak mse ak form 3 n form 5....thun ak ad exam bsar n thun2 ni la thun yg pling hepi dlam hidup ak mse ak jdi student..


tpi yg best kwan ak time high school ni mmg kwan yg bleh n lyak diingati la...dorg mmg gmpak gile r...yg best tu..geng ak dlu geng taiko...ak ad 3org je kwan pompuan..mens yg mmg kamceng r...then..the rest is ...llaki.ak pon xpham npe ak mmg rmai membe llaki...tpi xbermkne ak ni sombong ngn dak pompuan..ak kwan sume org tpi xrmai yg leh kamceng ngn ak...yg ad tu je la 3 org tu je....


yg best tu mse senior year kitorg mmg rules the school r...yg best tu geng ak  ni mmg abg2 senior yg hot kt skola..so mmg jdi tumpuan junior2 r...walawei...bile time rehat je...ak n 3 org ag kwan pompuan ak akn jlan ke kntin smbil diiringi kkwan llaki kitorg yg kononnye hot tu..so...bbdak junior mmg sbok nk kwan ngn kitorg sbab nk dpt kirim slam kat kkwan ak...normal r kan...jgn ckap yg korg tu inesen sgt time skola dlu..msti ad yg mnat kat senior kan???ak pernh jdi muda..hahaha..so kirenye..geng ak ni feymes gak r...feymes sbab slalu nek pjabat sbab ad je yg terlibat ngn kes skola...kcuali ak n 3org kwan pompuan ak la..hahahaha...


pas abes skola..ak stay kat matrix lak...tpi sbab ak ni mmg rzeki ak mmg xjauh so..ak pon amek mtrix pon kat Tangkak je...jrak Tangkak ngn Segamat mmg dkat...adlah 1 jam..lau skit prut xsempat nk kentut da smpai...hahaha..lau caya mmg bodo..blik bkak peta Johor..


kat matrix..lain plak knakaln ak kluarkan..yg pnting kat mne je ak kne cmpak msti ad je geng yg skepala...mse ak kat mtrix mmg rmai r geng skola ak stay kat tmpat yg sme...yg best geng skaepale ak zmn skola dlu mmg kat situ gak..tu yg mkin galak ak beraksi..hahaha..


kat mtrix...mse klas tutor pon ak ngn geng ak smpat berdengkor kat blaknag klas...mcm2 cre r kitorg cover..membe ak pnye cre mmg best...pegang pen sbatang..tunduk kpale dlm 45'..pastu wat cre yg korg tgh bgi perhatian yg mmg pnuh kat lectrurer..hahaha..sure ak ckap..mmg xpernh kantoi..xtau r sme ad mmg taktik kitorg tu berjaye o lecturer ak mmg mlas nk kesah hal kitorg yg mlas...hahahaha..


dlm lecture hall lak..slalunye ak mmg lpak ngn geng ak je la..ad la dlam 5-6 org...yg pnting kpale msing2 mmg seirama...yg best tu tiap kali msuk hall je kitorg msti dduk kat spot yg best...dri spot tu kitorg bleh usha mmat2 ensem pujaan hati kitorg from the spot..hahaha..pastu sspe yg smpat gi Starbuck kat tepi library tu..msti beli kuih xpun Muruku Ikan yg 20sen stu pket tu...pastu ap lgi...picnin r kitorng..jrang r kitorg  dgr ap yg lecturer bgi kat dpan tu...mmg heaven r hdup ak kt mtrix...


tpi tu la..nsib baik ak lpas mtrix...lau x mmg mati gak r ak kne goreng ngn mak ak...tpi tu la..pngalaman hidop mcm tu mmg mnis..t lau ak da tue ad la bnde yg ak nk kongsi ngn ank ak..n pastu ak mmg xbleh nk ckp bnyk r lau ank ak pon dgil cam ak gak...


life is sweet..dont waste it..

wat sspe yg tgh exam tu...gud luck k...study beb..