welcome..me n Ramadan

HYE!! arini 1 Ramadhan...xsngke da stahun kita tgglkan Ramadhan yg dulu...tiap2 kali puasa ak akn puasa dgn hepi....tapi thun ni things have changed to my life....dri ap yg ak ingt....ak start puase..mse umor ak 7thun.....hehehe..tpi tbuk2 la...and stiap thun..mak ak msti msk sdap2 time bbuka...time tu hepi gile...


tpi.....mse bulan puase thun 2007...mse tu ak umo 16 thun...tu la first puase ak tnpe mak ak...sbab mak ayah ak seperate....so tu la first time ak msak sndiri tok bbuka...klaka gak bile ingt blik...sbab ak dduk ngn Abah...so..nk xnk..ak msti msak in order to survive...hahahahha...ak try msak cam mak ak slalu buat....tpi...slalu gak r fail...tpi..Abah slalu ckap ak msak sdap.....and..mse time Raye thun tu pown ak blaja beraye ngn Abah je...no complete family anymore...mmg time tu bru ak tau nape rmai org sayu bile dgr takbir raye....


mmg sgt sdey....klau dlu..mlm rye kitorg stu fmily akn dok bork2..bce Yaasin...kmas umah...tpi thun tu..mmg lain gile...umah mmg klam...kitorg wat persiapan pon ala kadar je....Abah msak rendang..msak lemang...tu la first time kitorng wat sume bnde tu sndiri...


tpi life getting better for the next year...


hidop ak ngn Abah mkin ok thun demi thun....ak pon da rse selesa ngn hidop ak......


tpi...

ujian dtg lagi....puasa thun 2009..puasa terakhir ak ngn Abah....Raya thun 2009 gak Raya terakhir ak ngn die.....
31Mac 2010....
tarikh yg akn ak ingt.....tarikh ni la mnandakan ak hilang llaki yg pling bermakna dalm hidop ak.....
hidop ak berubah lpas tu....
ak kne mnerima kenyataan yg die dah xde...tgglkn ak n adik2....
n thun ni....ak sambut blan Puasa tnpe die....
thun lpas ak study kat matrix mse bulan puase....brape kali he ak dpat blik berbuka ngn Abah...sbab ak pikir...thun dpan still ad lgi pluang ak nk buka puase ngn die....
tpi.....the reality is...thun lpas la thun terakhir ak Puase ngn die....ak xdpat pon nk msakkn mknan feveret die time bbuka...
rse sayu je....
klu dulu die ad...tpi skang...die da pergi....
klu dulu stiap kli rye..ak akn slam tgn die...n mnx ampun dri die..n die akn cium dahi ak....tpi thun ni..ak just bley tgk nisan die je....n berdoa yg die akn maafkan sgale dosa ak...


klu dlu..ak ngn die siapkan bnga rmpai tiap2 mlm rye tok kubur Nenek..tpi thun ni..ak akn dduk dan buat bnda yg sme tok die....
dlu...ak dduk kat tepi kubur Nenek ngn die bce Yaasin..tpi skarang...ak n adik2 akn dduk kat tepi kubur die...bce Yaasin tok die....


klu ini ujian Allah tok ak....ak akn terima ngn sekuat hati...
ak sntiasa berhrap yg satu hari nnti kitorg skeluarga akn rse mnisnya pahit yg kitorng rse skarang....


ad ayt yg ak ske..

IF LIFE GIVE YOU LEMON YOU MAKE IT LEMONADE

so...ak kne accept apepon yg jdi dlam hidop ak ngn rse syukur sbab Allah syg kat ak....

tu yg membe ak slalu ckap.....

so..enuff for today....

WELCOME RAMADHAN!!!

we miss u so much Abah...