hesitation

missing someone.

ade orang cakap ngan aku..x..xla directly topic die..tapi dari ape yang aku ley kaitkan ngan cite ni..

just call kalau nak call.don't hesitate.

but i just couldn't do it.

because..deep down i am expecting that my call will be pick and we will talking all night long.

n just because i happen to put the expectation, i just can't reach the phone.

i am too afraid.

too afraid to be down.

for the 1st time in those years, i am afraid i will be hurt by him.

2different side.

yes..thanks to someone..actually not someone.2 people in my case.


both of them make me feel like to write today..yeah..not much differences between them accept..

one of them make me smile..n the other one make me scream my lung out.

one of them put me in my fantasy land..n the other one send me straight away to my reality land.

 hmmmmm..

which one should accept my gratitude the most..?

the one who give me a dream or the one who crash the dream ?

but..

because of both of them..i was kind of happy..they give me a reason to smile..

smile on my foolishness.

*suit yourself..huh.??


 

1citizen

bukak2 blog...

hepi bace hapdet kekawan aku yang sumenye hepi2..hmmm..untunglaaa korang..bukan nak cakap pe...tapi..kekadang sedey gak bile tengok diri sendiri...heeeee..

ok.nuff said..btw..i am happy with my life now n before.. *smile on my face.

tadi aku baru je follow class tok 1Citizen..program ni aku rase sume orang akan participate..ni cam awareness campaign for the internet users cam kite2 ni..

mase tengah dok dengar lecture tu..tetibe aku rase aku nak delete sume acc aku yang exist kat alam maya ni.it's kinda creepy gak bile tengok ape yang boley jadi..it's beyond our expectation..before this..ade gak aku dengar yana dok bebel2 cite kat aku pasal2 bende2 ni..yela die dak IT..tapi..cam bese r..ade yang lekat kat pale..ade yang terbang selaju angin..

tapi..bile aku bukak2..rase sayang lak nak deactivated sume jenis acc aku..haih..










p/s:hopefully bole r spent time ngan yana n wahid sekali..sebb da lme gak xmelepak beramai..memasing bz ngan keje memasing..

satu lagi hari dalam hidup aku..

 tadi bday lecturer aku...so..kitorang pakat reramai nyanyi tok die...yela..2sem die ajar kitorang..so..sebelum die further study..kitorang nak gak left a deep impression kat die..yela..something to remember..

pas da nyanyi..lecturer aku pon offer kat kitorang nak amek gambo kitorang reramai..nak jumpe x ngan all my classmate...jap ea...

 

 ni la classmate aku...amacam..???ramai kannn...

 

 xde sesi peluk cium or bebagi hadiah pon...tapi...best gak sebab dapat wat die terharu..sebab die cakap xpernah ade orang nyanti lagu kekuat cam kitorang buat..

tetibe aku terpikir...

best gak jadi pengajar ni..jasa dikenang oleh pelajar..pahala pon banyak..

nak tukar profession r nanti..teheeee..

n lagi satu aku nak share..

aku jumpe dalam FB..

korang lak camne..??

sebab...sekarang ni...i want to feel better..

orang kat tepi2 aku skang ni..sometimes make me feel weary..(not everyone)..so..i need to talk to someone..whom i used to talk to...but..eventually..he's kinda busy...so..i just can't bear to reach out the phone n ring him just to nagging about my life to him..

so..the best solution..do the prayer n talk to HIM..ALLAH is always for u..u can always reach out to HIM.. :)

papepon..aku hebat..!!

weekend agi..haih..

mengeluh..dan terus mengeluh..

kenape..??

da memang aku ni selalu mengeluh..xpernah nak bersyukur dengan ape yang ade..

*reflect diri..

haih..ishhh..mengeluh agi...ok..time aku nak mengadu la..satu..dua tiga..!!!

BANYAKNYA ASSIGNMENT!!!

baru skang aku terase..betapa bebannye sem ni..n to all engineering students yang selalu dok pandang rendah ngan course yang aku amek ni..sila-sila la bersila dengar cite aku..

betol..kitorang xperlu nak face ber jam2 kredit n struggle ngan test yang ade tetiap minggu..tapi..assignment n group projek kitorang da cukup sibok nak cover test2 tetiap minggu..

pening dowh nak pikir...

aku amek 6subjek..6gak la group projek aku...adooooiii..memasing nak bagi projek yang gempak2..hai la..nasib2..creativity is a must la kan..group project dak2 kelas aku ni memang mostly kene get involved ngan manusia..xde ngan mesin ke ape..

since 1st year..asyik kene gi interview orang je..then wat report..2nd year..gi lak kat certain kilang..then..study la pasal production dorang..tahun ni..3rd year..ade lain sikit..sebab..xbanyak projek yang perlu kitorang pi tanye sane sini..ade gak..tapi x la sampai macam2 tahun2 lepas..

n untuk itu..aku kene struggle explore AUTOCAD sem ni..!!

good luck MAT!!!

BEN : jangan sedih ea mat..ben kan ade..

MAT : ye...( ben busuk la..x mandi!!)

p/s: Ben...tolong bacakan ea...t wat summary..pas tu hanta k.. ;) mat nak gi karoke !!

hmmmmppphhh

a lesson for u

sentap bile ade orang suroh aku jadi lembut...


ok..i admit la..aku ni memang lack of gentleness..a bit harsh..a bit loud..mmmm..not a bit..but a lot...

so..what the matters..??

i was not born to impress anybody...u need to accept me as i am..if it bother u a lot..LEAVE!!

sebenonye aku ni tengah bengang...ye..BENGANG,BANGANG!!

*soriiii..a bit kasar.. :)

even aku yang sedia kasar ni pon ko xpandai nak respect...ape lagi bile aku ni turn to jelly-like behaviour kann...even aku yang keras kepale ni pon ko xpernah nak kalah..ni kan pulak kalau aku jadi ala2 blonde girl yang dok sengih xtentu pasal kannn..

so..what's the point aku kene berubah tok orang cam ko..??

aku xnak jadi pompuan yang cam jelly2 ni..sebab..da ramai sangat..n..aku ni bukan orang yang hipokrit...

sori k...so don't expect me to be more than it should be..if u r my friend..then..u will get what a friend should get..n i will always be the best for my friend..n...as a friend..u should accept me as i am..that's why u be my friend at the 1st place right..??

ok.cukup marah.










p/s: to u-know-who..just browsing in mall this night..suddenly it remind me of u..which one is better for u in winter..?? (it will be nice if i get ur answer)

mari mengundi UTHM !!

hellooo!!

arini sesape student UTHM..wajib gi mengundi..ye..xde alasan korang xcukup umo ke ape..as long as korang ade pegang kad matrix UTHM korang layak..

so..UTHM-ian..have u done ur duty..??

hahahaha..lepas ni da xyah nak struggle bile nak jalan keliling kampus..yela..memanjang pedestrian penuh ngan poster2 sape yang masuk bertanding tok MPP kali ni..

muke memasing bahagie gile..bangge la kan..dapt bertanding...kalau aku pon..kalau dulu mase aku gi mengundi for the 1st time...aku bukan cam pon muke calon2 tu..maklumla..freshie agi mase tu..

tapi..

arini tidak lagi..nak kate aku kamceng ngan sume calon tu memang x la..lau aku memang kamceng..baik aku pon letak name kan...setakat cam muke...penah bertukar senyuman..pernah kerja sesame..pernah terjoin xtvt sesame tu ade la..xdela..aku main pangkah je kali ni..elehhh...

tapi..

papepon aku nak wish good luck to all the candidate..kalau korang menang bagos la..n jangan lupe..sile realisasikan segala manifesto korang..sebab..kitorang undi korang sebab manifesto korang..MANIFESTO ADALAH JANJI..

n..pade sesape yang xdapat seperti yang dihajati..it's ok..sebab..korang nye participant pon da cukup bagus...sebab..korang berani ke depan..KAMI BANGGA DENGAN KAMU!!

so guys...





p/s : let's smile..for whatever happen in ur life.. ^^

n he is the reason why i scream.. kyaaaa!!!